Hold Me In Your Arms.

Watching the world float on by
I can say I'm alright
Watching the sun light the moon
As the day turns to night

And he says
"Don't you know I love you,
Don't you know you're beautiful"

He says
"Everyday is special,
you have made me believe"

Hold me in your arms
'Cause I'm falling
Hold me in your arms
While we're sleeping
Hold me in your arms

Dreaming of soft cotton clouds
I feel close to you now
Dreaming of candy and chocolate
All the bad girls not allowed

And he says as he thinks I'm sleeping
He whispers "Girl, you are the one,
Never thought I could feel this way,
Girl, you made me believe"

Hold me in your arms
'Cause I'm falling
Hold me in your arms
While we're sleeping
Hold me in your arms

Though I'm a little scared
That all the times we shared
Almost too perfect to ever last

And when I'm lying here
And you are holding me
I know the fear in me will pass

Hold me

Hold me in your arms
'Cause I'm falling
Hold me in your arms
While we're sleeping
Hold me, hold me
Hold me in your arms

Hold me in your arms
'Cause I'm falling
Hold me in your arms
While we're sleeping
Hold me, hold me, hold me in your arms

The Way The World Works.

Gimme just a little break
Ain't no more that I can take
I am asking for the planets to align

Calling on the universe
Maybe once, just put me first
Gimme what I need or give a little sign

Nothing plays out like it should
And nothing does me any good
'Cause I'm missing you, it's making me cry

Ooh, I know it's turning
Inside I'm burning...

I'm so tired of the way the world works
I'm so tired of the way the world works
They conspire trying to keep this apart

Nothing ventured, nothing gained
I don't mind a little pain
But enough's enough

But does the heart grow fonder?
Will I wait here on ya?
Baby, how much longer?

Ooh, I know it's turning
All I am learning is...

I'm so tired of the way the world works
I'm so tired of the way the world works
They conspire trying to keep this apart

There's so much in life that's undecided
There's so much to avoid, let's not invite it
And only so much you can control

What are the voices that try and tease us
I wish the voices would just release us
I haven't seen you in forever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, baby

(Hey, hey, gimme just a little break, hey, hey, ain't no more that I can take, hey, hey)

They're trying to keep us apart

I'm so tired of the way the world works
I'm so tired of the way the world works
They conspire trying to keep this apart

I'm so tired of the way the world works
I'm so tired of the way the world works
They conspire trying to keep this apart

Nothing Compares.

Walking down Brick Lane, feel the blue.
Winds blowing lightly and I picture you.
Sweet Sunday morning, with nothing to do.
Love is like a dream, when it's just me and you.

Open my window, sing me a song.
Baby can't you see that this is where I belong
With your hand in my hand, still feel feel the love
Really wish that we could go back to the way that it was.

They say if it doesn't kill you it'll make you stronger.
Oh, but I can't be without you any longer.
Everytime I let it go, baby it's you.
Nothing compares to you.
Nothing compares to you.

Sweet sunday morning, all by myself.
Hard love what we've done, when with anyone else.
Watch my mascara dripping down.
Baby how did we end up like this? Where are you now?

They say if it doesn't kill you it'll make you stronger.
Oh, but I can't be without you any longer.
Everytime I let it go, baby it's you.
Nothing compares to you.
Nothing compares to you.

I'm running fast, as fast as I can, to get you back, just to get you back again.
I can not wait, I can not wait, if we can be, we can be us again.
I cry at night, cry at night, I'll cry for all the words, all the words I didn't say.
Sweet Sundays, sweet Sundays.

They say if it doesn't kill you it'll make you stronger.
Oh, but I can't be without you any longer.
Everytime I let it go, baby it's you.
Nothing compares to you.
Nothing compares to you.

Say It.

Just thought to post this up 'cause this song always gets me..
They don't make slow jams like this anymore =(

my love just goes on and on and on...

Paradiso Girls - Patron Tequila.

Omd so I discovered these girls on youtube last month and I've jus been mad about this same tune from then.
Since I still haven't gotten over it, I thought I'd blog it. =]
For the girls who love to party hard and get drunk xD

Something I copied:
"Here's to all the girls who used to be his number one.
The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning and be disappointed.
The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing happened.
Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going.
The one's who listened to him say, "I only want to be your friend", one day, and the next, listen to him say how much he loves and misses you... We deserve something more."

...But I'm Dying.

now momma said "you can't take love for granted you better keep him 'cause he's the best you've had" thought the grass was greener and if you leave me, i'ma be right there. who's hurting who? (yeah) you hurting you when you don't think about what you say, you let your pride push love away.

and when you need someone, who's gonna love you down? you don't want just anyone who's been around the town. promised that forever we'd be together but that arguement was the last thing we said.

Chorus:

and i can't eat, i can't sleep, playing back those memories. when i was there, you were here standing right in front of me. you're out of my life. for now i'll try to play cool on you, but i'm dying.

ooh ooh ooh oohhhh ooh ooh ooh but i'm dying without you

and i cry when i look at your picture, or hear the sound of your voice on my voicemail. i want to touch, want to feel you. i want to go back because it hurts like hell.

who's fooling who? i guess i'll play the fool. i'll push my ego out the way, there's so much that we need to say.

'cause when you're all alone who's gonna love you down? and it's been so long, we need to work it out. i know i'll go crazy without my baby. i won't be right until i see you again.

and i can't eat, i can't sleep, playing back those memories. when i was there, you were here standing right in front of me. you're out of my life. for now i'll try to play cool on you, but i'm dying.

ooh ooh ooh oohhhh ooh ooh ooh but i'm dying without you

oooooohhhhhhhh, said i'm dying without you

oooooohhhhhhhh, i'm dying without you

oooooohhhhhhhh, don't know what to do ... i can't ... said i'm dying

ooh ooh ooh oohhhh ooh ooh ooh you're out of my life, for now i'll try to play cool on you

oh and, alright alright

Self written poem.

Is it safe to call you baby?
Is it safe to call you mine?
Is it ok with you to hear my voice every day and every night?
I want you like this and I need you like that.
Give me your love and say you need mine back.
Give me your all, all that you can give.
'Cause I promise i'll be there each day that you live.

I'll be your today, tomorrow.. I'll be your forever.
<3

Photoshoot! 27.08.09

I got offered the chance to do a photoshoot at Studio London which some of you may have heard of... Here are a few pictures me and my girl Angie took :]















gwan sexyyy! ;]


















close up of me ^_^


















sexy Angieee!
















Casual/ Streetwear














I apologise for the lack of photos... She doesn't like a lot of them and I don't want to upload too much of me lol

A LEVELS!

This post is wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy over due!!! But hey, better late than never.

On the 20th of August 2009, approximately 9:30 am, I checked my UCAS track and WOIIII I got into my first choice University!!! xD You know what that means right?! I GOT THE RESULTS I NEEDED!!! ^_____________^
And to think that I thought I done badly in my summer exams, I actually didn't! :]
Thank you God! And all my friends and family who supported me and believed that I could do it!
Until next time, Audrey*

Time.

Time is GOLD

Time plays a big part in everyone's life. It's just that not everyone realises how important it is to them. There are always quotes I hear from people's mouths like "I need more time" or "She/He caught me at the wrong time" or "Only time will tell" etc. But what if you have a good opportunity, and at that split second, you can make a decision which can influence the current life you have now, which can make you happier? If you screw this opportunity up, you may never get another chance like this until after a few months, years, maybe even never.. What if tables were turned and you gave this chance to the same person who gave it to you, would you take it or leave it? Basically, what I'm trying to say is, allow time to play it's part in your life but don't throw away opportunities which may not always come. The decisions you make can be influenced by the time you make them. Think about what's best for you and others around you. Time is a precious thing. Don't waste it.

Until next time, Audrey*

S T R E S S !

WOW! I haven't blogged in a long time. I've just been so busy planning for my debut.. stressful times!! Well wish me luck! I hope it turns out well. I got two weeks and three days left to get my cotillion sorted... PAHHHHH!!!
My student loan hasn't even been sorted yet either!! LONG STORY!! ¬¬ Hopefully, I can sort that out.. A Level Results next week!! =[ I'm so shitting myself right now. If I don't get the results I need, CLEARING '09 HERE I COME! D= sooooo sad. Hope is needed so I'm praying whatever happens, I'll be successful in what I do..and happy =].
Until my next shitty rant :], Audrey*

KCAT!

I just posted this blog to say I met Kcat last night! I was so shy to approach her at first.. she was sitting at a table next to mine :) but I finally got the courage up to ask for a picture with her. I was actually stalling for a good 2 hours LOOOL. Delinquent was also with her but I didn't get a picture 'cause I felt embarrassed to ask for one looool. Here it is:













05/07/09

I know I looked berr baffed and gay.. only cause I was so happy! and felt ugly next to her hahaha.
Until next time, Audrey*

Happiness. .

This post was inspired by one of my girls and is dedicated to all the girls out there who feels this way.
It's funny how the one person that you used to think made you happy, isn't making you happy at all anymore. What if one day it all comes crashing down, and you know it will come to an end one way or another? What if that day comes where you're preparing yourself for that pain you will have to go through the minute you break up 'cause you knew it was bound to happen? What if one day you chose to end it with the person you love, so that you wouldn't have to go through the suffering anymore, and felt it was the best for the both of you to just move on? Sometimes, they say "if it's meant to be, it's meant to be"... However, whether you break up or not, the truth is sometimes a break up or some space is good 'cause it can either test how strong your love is for each other or it can also determine whether you're happier being with them or without them. All you gotta do is wait and see what happens between the both of you, but this time, be strong enough to do what's best for YOU and no one else 'cause everyone deserves to be happy. No one deserves to go through the same suffering over and over again just to be with that one person. You can shed tears, but allow each tear to make you stronger and learn from every aspect that ever hurt you and overcome it. You gotta love yourself as well as that one person, so don't sit there hurting yourself, be the stronger person and make a decision that will benefit both you and him/her. If the suffering doesn't stop now, it'll hurt even more the later you leave it. Never forget about the things that made you smile in your relationship, keep it as a souvenir so at least you know for even that one second you were truly happy.

Until next time, Audrey*

28th June '09

So I was sitting and waiting at my salon to get my hair done for Prom when I decided to go through some random mag. No it was no ordinary mag, the paper was a bit thicker than just an ordinary mag... It was almost like a mini catalogue with different fashion trends, hairstyles etc and here's what I encountered:

Funky Hats;

<--this was one of my favourites!

Anime make up;

Believe this was actually real people. Their anime eyes were drawn on top of their eyelids so they had to take pictures with their eyes shut! The aim was to reach the anime effect with the make up and hair. Also cause the designer saw anime as not just sweet little japanese girls but girls with an edge, some violent and aggressive so they made the models appear with weapons which is clearly shown in their outfits. I love this!

I hope you enjoyed this random post lol.

Until next time, Audrey*

Pixie Lott - What U Do :)

Because I'm so in love with this song, I thought I'd put the lyrics up :) - the video is in the blog I posted below this but I'll put it up anyway ^_^


What U Do:
baby baby baby
didnt believe in love at all
went through my days with a wall in place
baby baby baby
thought I'd be stronger on my own
but then you came along and Im changed

yes i feel the butterflies
yes I go all weak inside
hate to admit it but Im hit and
I dont want you to leave my side
used to love all romantic films
now I see you and me in them
say cheesy lines like"I'll be yours if you'll be mine."
this must be love
love what you do to me
oh what you do to me
cant get enough
of what you do to me
oh what you do to me
put your hands up if you feel like this
if your crazy about a guy and its real like this
put your hands up if you feel like this
if your crazy about a girl and its real like this

baby baby baby I've been spraying your cologne on my clothes
have I gone insane?
maybe maybe maybe I was way too cynical
thinking I would never find out Im crazy
Roses used to make me quease
but from you they smell so sweet
hate to admit it but Im hit and
god I even like your feet
never had a boy get me so
your picture's under my pillow
call you all the silly names
my boo my baby cakes

this must be love this must be love
love what you do to me
oh what you do to me
cant get enough
of what you do to me
oh what you do to me
put your hands up if you feel like this
if your crazy about a guy and you feel like this
put your hands up if you feel like this
if your crazy about a girl and its real like this

oh its a shame I was ashamed
embarrased to feel
head over heels
thought love was just fantasy
but now with you
I dont have to hide
you bring me to life
I never knew.... ooooh

if youre crazy about a guy and you feel like this
hey, put your hands up if you feel like this
put your hands up if you feel like this
like this, like this, like this, like this,like this,like this, like this, like this....
this must be love
this must be love
this must be love
look what you do to me
oh what you do to me
cant get enough
of what you do to me
oh what you do to me
put your hands up if you feel like this if your crazy about a guy and it feels like this
put your hands up if you feel like this if your crazy about a girl and you feel like this
like this, like this, like this, like this,like this....

Until next time, Audrey*

PIXIE LOTT!

I LOVE HER !!! SUCH GREAT MUSIC - I'M A FANATIC!!!
And 'cause I'm so nice, I will share her with you if you have not yet heard of her. Don't tell me you've just heard of her song Mama Do 'cause you knowing just one song of hers is CRAP! LOL. If you did not bother researching her yourself when you discovered how good she was, blame your laziness - you're not a true fan ^_^ LOOOL.
Well here it is;








www.pixielott.com/
www.myspace.com/pixiesongs
www.myspace.com/pixielottnews
www.youtube.com/user/pixieofficial
www.twitter.com/pixielottnews

Until next time, Audrey*

"Identity Crisis"

Benjamin Zephaniah's poem 'Knowing Me' and other Post-Colonial Literature has inspired me to post this blog because one of its main themes are identity - and 'cause I'm studying it at English A level.

Who are we? Why do events from decades ago still affect personal views now? Especially when we're living in such a multi-cultural society today. Why is it that some people are still against mixed race babies - no, I'm not just talking about Black and White parents, I'm talking about Asian and White, Oriental and Black etc. Personally, I think they make beautiful babies!

Benjamin Zephaniah's 'Knowing Me' poem emphasises how proud he is to be who he is; Ethiopian and Jamaican. It does not make him "feel lost" neither is he against "sex" with other ethnicities; "diversity is [his] pornography" and he does not need to have an "identity crisis to feel oppressed". Unlike Derek Walcott's poems on slavery, oppression and imprisonment e.g. 'The Castaway' and 'The Almond Trees', Zephaniah takes a more modern approach and reflects the socioety he is living in now to his personal views of things. He does not allow what happened to his ancestors to affect his identity and feels accepted in the world he lives in now.

Zadie Smith's 'White Teeth' also shows the influence of colonialism on individuals. One of my favourite poems are 'A Grain of Wheat' written by Ngugi wa Thiong'o. It's a great poem surrounding the idea of isolation and how it can affect you mentally and psychologically.

Basically, what I'm trying to say is that identity is mostly seen as what your ethnic background is, and it's funny how they have certain categories in those questionnaires you have to fill out. What if you don't entirely just fit in one; like me being Filipino, Japanese and Spanish but living in Britain - where do I tick? I'm not saying I feel lost but it does not feel right to be categorised into just one ethnic background when you belong to more than just one. This forces me to tick "Any other Asian background" - it kind of feels degrading how you're pushed to the side about "other" kmt.

But hey, you still get those immature racist people calling you "Chinese" or whatever. LISTEN. Don't be calling Oriental looking Asians "Chinese" or ask for DVDs when we blaitenly do not look like DVD sellers. You wouldn't like it if I asked you for Curry, a spliff, or asked if you were selling fake Rolex watches so allow stereotyping or doing whatever you're doing thinking you know who we are. Uhhh love, you don't cause you're just a random "it" on road who just can't tell the difference in the type of Oriental Asians you see so BUGGER OFF. The majority of you probably don't take your time fixing up your identity yet are so proud of who you are?! Alright, bigheads and conceited individuals need serious fixing up 'cause you really do not have a say in other people's lives, thinking that you do. Think again.

Until next time, Audrey*

EXAM STRESS!

omg Omg OMG!!!

I haven't posted a blog for a while 'cause I've been trying to avoid certain things to make me focus on Sixth Form stuff but these exams are giving me spotsss loool. Nah on a serious note, I feel nowhere near prepared and 'cause it's affecting me so much, I'm leaving everything to last minute which I know is bad but I tend to concentrate better under time pressure :D
Well wish me luck for these examsss ! ><
This one goes to revision and good sleep :) and for those who have exams to revise for too, GOOD LUCK ^_^ it's never too late to bring your grades up; trust me!
Until next time, Audrey*

WOOO !!!

Drop by my girls' house...

Stupid man trynah talk to us at the station... drunk on SUPERMALT?! =/

At Monument...

On the train there...

and againnn...

At Monument...

still there... lol

Jammin at the bar... FINALLY.

Me and my girrrls :]

and againnn...


Me and one of the bday girls :) - love herrr

Me and the bday girrls...

Me and Best Nessa; also the bday girl :) - no I'm not pissed nor drunk, nor do I have alcohol in my system, I was just really tired that day 'cause I woke up really early from a couple of hours sleep and was awake till 5am...

:)

getting readyyy..

Here it goesss!!

Clubbing babyyy !!! :D

Skankers. - watch my hand in front lol.

Most memorable part of the night - MIGRAINE SKANK!!!

Manna said showww me how you get downnn !!!

BEST NIGHT I HAD IN AGESSS !!!! Didn't get home 'till 4am, got grounded and all sorts... minor, was worth it anyway ^_^ love all the bday girls, thanks for the great night! =]

DEADLINES.

6.40AM!

Yes can you believe I still haven't slept yet geeez. My sleeping pattern is so messed up. Ever since the Easter holidays I haven't been able to sleep properly! Sad times I know 'cause I love my sleep but I got deadlines to meet, revision to do. So much work load; so much stress. Ahhh being a teenager is all love and hate conflict really. So you're wondering why I'm still up at THIS particular time... It's because I had to finish my darn English Coursework off where we were only given two weeks to complete = two drafts only, the 1st draft and final draft. I just had to start all over again 'cause I'm determined to get an A in it!!! Even if it's a few marks off an A, I don't care, I know I spent time fixing it up anyway =].

So... I got church in roughly 4hours and a bit so there is no way I'm sleeping now otherwise I won't be able to get up! I will have to kill time by doing some revision, reading and of course blogging! :D I actually have cut down on MSN and Facebook 'cause I'm back to college and it's not so necessary nowadays unless you gotta talk to people about something important or urgent. There's not a lot of free time on my hands anymore and more of my time is going to be taken up by dance. Yes, I'm going back to dance after two years or more!! I'll be slacking but allow me, it takes time to get back into the habit again. I guess that will be my new form of excercise - I love ittt! But I gotta make sure it doesn't get in the way of my studies. Oh dear such a hassle these exams hey. Oh well, that's the way life goesss. Okay so I'm chatting enough s**t on here, I'll just catch up on my sleep when I get home from church. The sun is friggin out already and the sky is blue! LOL.
Sleep we don't back!

Until next time, Audrey*

Music :]*

I'm one of those people who would say "Music is my LIFE", but don't misjudge me when I say that. I'm into nearly every type of music you can think of, sometimes even Classical ;P - I did tell you I'm not your typical average girl lol. This blog is just about Musicians/Singers who are doing it for me :] Off course I'm into the typical Old School Garage and Funkyhouse etc but the songs which inspire me the most are the ones who bring a new flavour into music, or an artist who I see different from others.

Tonya Mitchell

In my opinion is one of THE best slow jam artists right now. I love her music too much! I just couldn't find a site with her music on so just download it or buy her album ;] Some of her songs are up on youtube but I wouldn't say it's updated.

Pixie Lott
She's a fresh new artist who I think has some BANGING tunes! It's fresh, different and funky. You need to listen to her. Love her or hate her, I don't care but personally her music is HOTTT.

www.myspace.com/pixiesongs

Kcat

Filipino female artist. You don't pronounce her name as K-Cat, just pronounced at "Cat" lol. Her first big hit was "My Destiny" then "I Got U" followed soon after. Now she's got a new kind of flavour of music which is different but I love it! :D

www.myspace.com/kcatworld

Jason Mraz

I've got to say my favourite song from him is "Im Yours" - it's so catchy, flowy and touching when you listen to the lyrics carefully.

www.myspace.com/jasonmraz

Deborah Cox

Someone buy me her album please!!! Her songs inspire me :D

www.myspace.com/deborahcox

Lady Gaga

The infamous Gaga. She wears a wig for her long hair but oh well! She slyly dirty as well but we love her 'cause she knows the meaning of fun ^_^

www.myspace.com/ladygaga

Noisettes

Don't upset the rhythm!!!

www.myspace.com/noisettesuk

Jazmine Sullivan

She's making it big!!! Her songs mean a lot and she brings in something different that other R&B artists haven't brought yet. I love her songs, I just need the money to buy it from HMV ><

www.myspace.com/jazminesullivan

M.I.A.

She's kind of retired now 'cause of her baby =[ but she will always be a great artist in my eyes =] from her music to her clothing.

www.myspace.com/mia

The Ting Tings
I just have to say one thing... SHUT UP AND LET ME GO HEY! LOL

www.myspace.com/thetingtings

Now let's take it back to the good old days... which still makes my heart skip a beat everytime I hear them :]

Boyz II Men

They are by far THE BEST slow jam writers/singers in living history 'cause no one can compare to the flavour they brought.

www.myspace.com/boyziimen

Brian Mcknight

I'm not even going to lie. His songs can make me cryyy my eyes out!!! Especially his song that goes "never felt this way about loving it feels so good" ahhh wow. He's so wow and I'm proud to say his wife is Filipino :D and he even made a tagalog version of his song "I'm Sorry" =] It's a shame I didn't get to buy tickets for his concert at the O2 >=[

www.myspace.com/brianmcknight

I'll add to this when I'm bothered again :D
Until next time, Audrey*

Death

My best friend inspired me to write this blog because she had recently been in a near death experience and was rushed to the hospital. Sitting in the same chair I was sitting in when she called me telling me what was happening before she had been rushed made me realise that I'm nowhere near prepared for losing any of my friends, my closest ones especially. I was sitting there not knowing what to do, wondering what was going to happen next and who to tell. It was not my business to tell everyone what was happening to her. This made me realise that I should make the most out of my friends who are still here because I never know when they'll just be gone in an instant. It's not like I don't already apply this to myself, I've been thinking about this concept for years now which explains why I you're most likely to see me smiling everytime you see me. There's nothing like smiling to hide the pain, just to make other's days feel that much better =). I just want to take this chance to let all my girls and guys know how much I do love them and I'll always b here for you to call or talk to anytime you need me. I won't let you down.. I hope :] I love you Jeh!

Until next time, Audrey*

Make Up!

Make Up isn't a necessity!

I want to go back to basics where make up wasn't a necessity and you could just go out being as pale as you are, have one too many spots without caring about what anyone thought about you; natural beauty. I want people to love me for who I am and not just how I look, with or without make up, I want them to see the inner me and still think I'm beautiful. This is also goes to all the girls out there who wear make up everyday of their lives even when they're at home. Hun, you're beautiful so you don't need it! I mean look at all the boys who still have the confidence and cheek to go out thinking they look good when they really don't. Not forgetting the ones who can't even use make up to look good. How sad. LOL.. but okay back to females. I'm not going to lie and say I hate make up 'cause I don't. I used to though! But now I don't 'cause I love to experiment with new things all the time and I don't like my spots showing =[ sad times I know but I gotta live with these marks on my face; it's part of being a teenager I'm afraid. Course make up is essential when you're going to a party! Anything to look good, right? Just like jewelerry, accessories and perfume.. Ahhh what would us girls be without them! We might as well just stay at home in pyjama's with our hair down and no earrings.. Just feel naked! Oh and another thing before I leave this blog here is that you girls who use all these products/electrical blurghhhs need to cut down! If you're just sitting at home and you're not going no place special, save your Mum from paying these high electrical bills or your unneeded hair products which will only ruin your hair! Enough of my ranting about make-up etc.

Until next time, Audrey*