Betcha - Megan Rochell

[Hook]
betcha betcha betcha didnt know ,
betcha betcha betcha didnt know ,
betcha betcha betcha didnt know it ,

[verse 1]
baby your pictures still hanging up on my wall ,
and i still get butterflies when i think the way you are ,
there are thoughs of the corners of my mind i remember what it was ,
to be completely in love ,
and then you told me to keep my heart away and start over brand new ,
it wasnt working between us ,
you couldnt love me like i needed you to ,
and there are things that you dont forget , i would give my
life to get in ya head did you know ,
how much i think about you ,
still huh

[chorus]
I betcha ya dont know that your still on my mind ,
I betcha ya dont know that thoughs of you make me cry ,
I know that we moved on , and yes its been so long ,
I betcha ya dont know that , i betcha dont know that.

[hook]
betcha betcha betcha didnt know ,
betcha betcha betcha didnt know ,
betcha betcha betcha didnt know it.

[Verse 2]
well its hard to belive its still so fresh on my brain ,
somedays how i feel you , when we broke up yesterday ,
and now so many things have changed ,
whos got your heart these days , i wish for you the best of everything ,
but still you dont understand.

Because i never though ill see the day there was no you ,
was like the ending of a sad movie , could'nt get through ,
and there are so many things that you dont know about me ,
still in the morning making coffee got my secraty,
this is what i think about and my thoughs if they came out ,
it would say.

[Chorus]
I betcha ya dont know that your still on my mind ,
I betcha ya dont know that thoughs of you make me cry ,
I know that we moved on , and yes its been so long ,
I betcha ya dont know that i still got ya picture and ill never get over you.

[breakdown]
You though that i was so unmove and you though i didnt care ,
you can still call me , sometime just to say hello ,
i know that you've asume , that im still mad at you ,
that was a memorie , your still apart of me baby if you ever wonder.

[hook]
betcha betcha betcha didnt know ,
betcha betcha betcha didnt know ,( so do you wonder )
( i still think about ya did ya know know ) betcha betcha betcha didnt know it ,

[chorus]
I betcha ya dont know that your still on my mind ,( your still on my mind)
I betcha ya dont know that thoughs of you make me cry ,(hooo , make me make me cry )
I know that we moved on ( moveed on) , and yes its been so long ,( sooo oo long )
I betcha ya dont know that , i betcha ya dont know that.( you dont know that )

I betcha ya dont know that your still on my mind ,( oooo , your still on my mind oo)
I betcha ya dont know that thoughs of you make me cry ,( you know you make me cryyy )
I know that we moved on , and yes its been so long ,(sooo long yeahh)
I betcha ya dont know that , i betcha ya dont know that

Baby your pictures still hanging up on my wall ,
and i still get butterflies hopeing that you might call

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Much loveee <3
Until next time, Audrey*

Don't break.

When you fall down, get back up, even stronger.

But when you fall and break, it's hard to repair yourself again.
It'll be even harder to get back up, if you're in pieces.
That's where I just came from.

I've seen and learnt that it takes time.
Weeks, months, maybe even years to repair the broken pieces of yourself.
Those cracks you find in your foundations, are all insecurities seeping through it. Or maybe even sadness, depression.

Some may notice it, but you won't.
You won't notice how much repairing you need for yourself.
You won't notice how much it's true what they say, you have to love yourself before you learn to love others.
And by doing that, that means getting over your insecurities, your past, your sadness and your depression.
That means finding happiness YOURSELF, not finding someone else to be with to actually make you happy.
No, 'cause when that person leaves you, you're back to your broken self and nothing is actually really solved until you find someone else to "complete" you.
But see, that term is only used, and should only be used if you know that deep down, you ARE incomplete, and you ARE broken.

A real relationship doesn't consist of two broken people, "completing" each other, it should consist of two WHOLE people, putting their insecurities aside to be strong enough together, to actually make it work and pass every trial there is in a relationship without getting hurt as much.
The weak ones don't survive.
And you'll see this in every weak relationship, the more they hurt, the more they'll become weak, then they'll break up and find someone else to "complete" them.
But that's not how it should work.

With every relationship that has broken you, you need time to repair yourself from the damage that has been caused to your heart, your feelings, your emotions.
With every bad thing that happened in your past, you should learn to forgive, forget and learn not to bring it up again and not to allow it to get in the way of your present life, 'cause it could ruin you, your relationship and your friendships.
And you wouldn't realise how it can also lead you to immaturity until it's too late.

If you find that you have been broken into pieces, or damaged, treat yourself.
Find the strength in yourself, the love you have for yourself, to repair the damage that has been caused.
'Cause that will be the only way you can get back up on your feet again.
If you learn to love yourself, the way you want others to love you, you have to earn respect for yourself, for others to respect you too.
And only by doing that, you find your true happiness.

You can sort out the problems with your insecurities and personality along the way.

Just remember to pick up your own pieces, repair them and conceal them, to make you a better you and even stronger, so when you come back up, you come back even higher and happier with yourself and with life.
Life isn't a fairytale, we just gotta live it to the fullest.

Soldier Girl.

With this crazy world we live in,
we can either choose to fit in,
or refuse to;
by looking past the things that go on around you and try to live a normal life.
One of peace, happiness and serenity.

The reason why some only have a few friends is 'cause they only want true friends.
Those who won't lie, bitch or disrespect you in any way.
Those who are there beside you, even if they don't see you as much.
Those who tell you the truth even if it hurts.

But in this world, it's hard to find a genuine friend who won't hurt you at least once from their lies, immoral attitude or whatever you want to call it.

With the crazy decisions people make, there is no putting sense into it, apart from understanding it from their view and living with it.
Whether you accept it or not is your choice.
You gotta learn to soldier it.

With every problem that you're faced with,
you gotta soldier it,
instead of being depressed with it all the time,
help your friends with theirs.
It's just so crazy how this all works.

Behind every smile, are a thousand tears.

But behind this smile, is just an independent girl living her life, trying to live it the right way.
Maybe it's too late to turn my mistakes around.
But I'm living my life the way I want to live it.
The way I should be living it.
Truly happy.

But to survive, I gotta be this soldier girl.
Who fights with her heart just to be able to do the right thing.
'Cause I guess the heart isn't always gonna be right,
and you hurt less listening to your head.

Lost in a world that doesn't always make sense,
but I face it with a smile,
and always forgive so easily and maybe forget.

It's not easy doing this,
and it hurts 'cause they don't realise how much it hurts each time you swallow what they do and simply say "it's ok".
But I guess this is what happens,
when you love them.

Hold Me In Your Arms.

Watching the world float on by
I can say I'm alright
Watching the sun light the moon
As the day turns to night

And he says
"Don't you know I love you,
Don't you know you're beautiful"

He says
"Everyday is special,
you have made me believe"

Hold me in your arms
'Cause I'm falling
Hold me in your arms
While we're sleeping
Hold me in your arms

Dreaming of soft cotton clouds
I feel close to you now
Dreaming of candy and chocolate
All the bad girls not allowed

And he says as he thinks I'm sleeping
He whispers "Girl, you are the one,
Never thought I could feel this way,
Girl, you made me believe"

Hold me in your arms
'Cause I'm falling
Hold me in your arms
While we're sleeping
Hold me in your arms

Though I'm a little scared
That all the times we shared
Almost too perfect to ever last

And when I'm lying here
And you are holding me
I know the fear in me will pass

Hold me

Hold me in your arms
'Cause I'm falling
Hold me in your arms
While we're sleeping
Hold me, hold me
Hold me in your arms

Hold me in your arms
'Cause I'm falling
Hold me in your arms
While we're sleeping
Hold me, hold me, hold me in your arms

The Way The World Works.

Gimme just a little break
Ain't no more that I can take
I am asking for the planets to align

Calling on the universe
Maybe once, just put me first
Gimme what I need or give a little sign

Nothing plays out like it should
And nothing does me any good
'Cause I'm missing you, it's making me cry

Ooh, I know it's turning
Inside I'm burning...

I'm so tired of the way the world works
I'm so tired of the way the world works
They conspire trying to keep this apart

Nothing ventured, nothing gained
I don't mind a little pain
But enough's enough

But does the heart grow fonder?
Will I wait here on ya?
Baby, how much longer?

Ooh, I know it's turning
All I am learning is...

I'm so tired of the way the world works
I'm so tired of the way the world works
They conspire trying to keep this apart

There's so much in life that's undecided
There's so much to avoid, let's not invite it
And only so much you can control

What are the voices that try and tease us
I wish the voices would just release us
I haven't seen you in forever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, baby

(Hey, hey, gimme just a little break, hey, hey, ain't no more that I can take, hey, hey)

They're trying to keep us apart

I'm so tired of the way the world works
I'm so tired of the way the world works
They conspire trying to keep this apart

I'm so tired of the way the world works
I'm so tired of the way the world works
They conspire trying to keep this apart

Nothing Compares.

Walking down Brick Lane, feel the blue.
Winds blowing lightly and I picture you.
Sweet Sunday morning, with nothing to do.
Love is like a dream, when it's just me and you.

Open my window, sing me a song.
Baby can't you see that this is where I belong
With your hand in my hand, still feel feel the love
Really wish that we could go back to the way that it was.

They say if it doesn't kill you it'll make you stronger.
Oh, but I can't be without you any longer.
Everytime I let it go, baby it's you.
Nothing compares to you.
Nothing compares to you.

Sweet sunday morning, all by myself.
Hard love what we've done, when with anyone else.
Watch my mascara dripping down.
Baby how did we end up like this? Where are you now?

They say if it doesn't kill you it'll make you stronger.
Oh, but I can't be without you any longer.
Everytime I let it go, baby it's you.
Nothing compares to you.
Nothing compares to you.

I'm running fast, as fast as I can, to get you back, just to get you back again.
I can not wait, I can not wait, if we can be, we can be us again.
I cry at night, cry at night, I'll cry for all the words, all the words I didn't say.
Sweet Sundays, sweet Sundays.

They say if it doesn't kill you it'll make you stronger.
Oh, but I can't be without you any longer.
Everytime I let it go, baby it's you.
Nothing compares to you.
Nothing compares to you.

Say It.

Just thought to post this up 'cause this song always gets me..
They don't make slow jams like this anymore =(

my love just goes on and on and on...

Paradiso Girls - Patron Tequila.

Omd so I discovered these girls on youtube last month and I've jus been mad about this same tune from then.
Since I still haven't gotten over it, I thought I'd blog it. =]
For the girls who love to party hard and get drunk xD

Something I copied:
"Here's to all the girls who used to be his number one.
The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning and be disappointed.
The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing happened.
Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going.
The one's who listened to him say, "I only want to be your friend", one day, and the next, listen to him say how much he loves and misses you... We deserve something more."

...But I'm Dying.

now momma said "you can't take love for granted you better keep him 'cause he's the best you've had" thought the grass was greener and if you leave me, i'ma be right there. who's hurting who? (yeah) you hurting you when you don't think about what you say, you let your pride push love away.

and when you need someone, who's gonna love you down? you don't want just anyone who's been around the town. promised that forever we'd be together but that arguement was the last thing we said.

Chorus:

and i can't eat, i can't sleep, playing back those memories. when i was there, you were here standing right in front of me. you're out of my life. for now i'll try to play cool on you, but i'm dying.

ooh ooh ooh oohhhh ooh ooh ooh but i'm dying without you

and i cry when i look at your picture, or hear the sound of your voice on my voicemail. i want to touch, want to feel you. i want to go back because it hurts like hell.

who's fooling who? i guess i'll play the fool. i'll push my ego out the way, there's so much that we need to say.

'cause when you're all alone who's gonna love you down? and it's been so long, we need to work it out. i know i'll go crazy without my baby. i won't be right until i see you again.

and i can't eat, i can't sleep, playing back those memories. when i was there, you were here standing right in front of me. you're out of my life. for now i'll try to play cool on you, but i'm dying.

ooh ooh ooh oohhhh ooh ooh ooh but i'm dying without you

oooooohhhhhhhh, said i'm dying without you

oooooohhhhhhhh, i'm dying without you

oooooohhhhhhhh, don't know what to do ... i can't ... said i'm dying

ooh ooh ooh oohhhh ooh ooh ooh you're out of my life, for now i'll try to play cool on you

oh and, alright alright

Self written poem.

Is it safe to call you baby?
Is it safe to call you mine?
Is it ok with you to hear my voice every day and every night?
I want you like this and I need you like that.
Give me your love and say you need mine back.
Give me your all, all that you can give.
'Cause I promise i'll be there each day that you live.

I'll be your today, tomorrow.. I'll be your forever.
<3

Photoshoot! 27.08.09

I got offered the chance to do a photoshoot at Studio London which some of you may have heard of... Here are a few pictures me and my girl Angie took :]















gwan sexyyy! ;]


















close up of me ^_^


















sexy Angieee!
















Casual/ Streetwear














I apologise for the lack of photos... She doesn't like a lot of them and I don't want to upload too much of me lol

A LEVELS!

This post is wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy over due!!! But hey, better late than never.

On the 20th of August 2009, approximately 9:30 am, I checked my UCAS track and WOIIII I got into my first choice University!!! xD You know what that means right?! I GOT THE RESULTS I NEEDED!!! ^_____________^
And to think that I thought I done badly in my summer exams, I actually didn't! :]
Thank you God! And all my friends and family who supported me and believed that I could do it!
Until next time, Audrey*

Time.

Time is GOLD

Time plays a big part in everyone's life. It's just that not everyone realises how important it is to them. There are always quotes I hear from people's mouths like "I need more time" or "She/He caught me at the wrong time" or "Only time will tell" etc. But what if you have a good opportunity, and at that split second, you can make a decision which can influence the current life you have now, which can make you happier? If you screw this opportunity up, you may never get another chance like this until after a few months, years, maybe even never.. What if tables were turned and you gave this chance to the same person who gave it to you, would you take it or leave it? Basically, what I'm trying to say is, allow time to play it's part in your life but don't throw away opportunities which may not always come. The decisions you make can be influenced by the time you make them. Think about what's best for you and others around you. Time is a precious thing. Don't waste it.

Until next time, Audrey*

S T R E S S !

WOW! I haven't blogged in a long time. I've just been so busy planning for my debut.. stressful times!! Well wish me luck! I hope it turns out well. I got two weeks and three days left to get my cotillion sorted... PAHHHHH!!!
My student loan hasn't even been sorted yet either!! LONG STORY!! ¬¬ Hopefully, I can sort that out.. A Level Results next week!! =[ I'm so shitting myself right now. If I don't get the results I need, CLEARING '09 HERE I COME! D= sooooo sad. Hope is needed so I'm praying whatever happens, I'll be successful in what I do..and happy =].
Until my next shitty rant :], Audrey*

KCAT!

I just posted this blog to say I met Kcat last night! I was so shy to approach her at first.. she was sitting at a table next to mine :) but I finally got the courage up to ask for a picture with her. I was actually stalling for a good 2 hours LOOOL. Delinquent was also with her but I didn't get a picture 'cause I felt embarrassed to ask for one looool. Here it is:













05/07/09

I know I looked berr baffed and gay.. only cause I was so happy! and felt ugly next to her hahaha.
Until next time, Audrey*

Happiness. .

This post was inspired by one of my girls and is dedicated to all the girls out there who feels this way.
It's funny how the one person that you used to think made you happy, isn't making you happy at all anymore. What if one day it all comes crashing down, and you know it will come to an end one way or another? What if that day comes where you're preparing yourself for that pain you will have to go through the minute you break up 'cause you knew it was bound to happen? What if one day you chose to end it with the person you love, so that you wouldn't have to go through the suffering anymore, and felt it was the best for the both of you to just move on? Sometimes, they say "if it's meant to be, it's meant to be"... However, whether you break up or not, the truth is sometimes a break up or some space is good 'cause it can either test how strong your love is for each other or it can also determine whether you're happier being with them or without them. All you gotta do is wait and see what happens between the both of you, but this time, be strong enough to do what's best for YOU and no one else 'cause everyone deserves to be happy. No one deserves to go through the same suffering over and over again just to be with that one person. You can shed tears, but allow each tear to make you stronger and learn from every aspect that ever hurt you and overcome it. You gotta love yourself as well as that one person, so don't sit there hurting yourself, be the stronger person and make a decision that will benefit both you and him/her. If the suffering doesn't stop now, it'll hurt even more the later you leave it. Never forget about the things that made you smile in your relationship, keep it as a souvenir so at least you know for even that one second you were truly happy.

Until next time, Audrey*

28th June '09

So I was sitting and waiting at my salon to get my hair done for Prom when I decided to go through some random mag. No it was no ordinary mag, the paper was a bit thicker than just an ordinary mag... It was almost like a mini catalogue with different fashion trends, hairstyles etc and here's what I encountered:

Funky Hats;

<--this was one of my favourites!

Anime make up;

Believe this was actually real people. Their anime eyes were drawn on top of their eyelids so they had to take pictures with their eyes shut! The aim was to reach the anime effect with the make up and hair. Also cause the designer saw anime as not just sweet little japanese girls but girls with an edge, some violent and aggressive so they made the models appear with weapons which is clearly shown in their outfits. I love this!

I hope you enjoyed this random post lol.

Until next time, Audrey*

Pixie Lott - What U Do :)

Because I'm so in love with this song, I thought I'd put the lyrics up :) - the video is in the blog I posted below this but I'll put it up anyway ^_^


What U Do:
baby baby baby
didnt believe in love at all
went through my days with a wall in place
baby baby baby
thought I'd be stronger on my own
but then you came along and Im changed

yes i feel the butterflies
yes I go all weak inside
hate to admit it but Im hit and
I dont want you to leave my side
used to love all romantic films
now I see you and me in them
say cheesy lines like"I'll be yours if you'll be mine."
this must be love
love what you do to me
oh what you do to me
cant get enough
of what you do to me
oh what you do to me
put your hands up if you feel like this
if your crazy about a guy and its real like this
put your hands up if you feel like this
if your crazy about a girl and its real like this

baby baby baby I've been spraying your cologne on my clothes
have I gone insane?
maybe maybe maybe I was way too cynical
thinking I would never find out Im crazy
Roses used to make me quease
but from you they smell so sweet
hate to admit it but Im hit and
god I even like your feet
never had a boy get me so
your picture's under my pillow
call you all the silly names
my boo my baby cakes

this must be love this must be love
love what you do to me
oh what you do to me
cant get enough
of what you do to me
oh what you do to me
put your hands up if you feel like this
if your crazy about a guy and you feel like this
put your hands up if you feel like this
if your crazy about a girl and its real like this

oh its a shame I was ashamed
embarrased to feel
head over heels
thought love was just fantasy
but now with you
I dont have to hide
you bring me to life
I never knew.... ooooh

if youre crazy about a guy and you feel like this
hey, put your hands up if you feel like this
put your hands up if you feel like this
like this, like this, like this, like this,like this,like this, like this, like this....
this must be love
this must be love
this must be love
look what you do to me
oh what you do to me
cant get enough
of what you do to me
oh what you do to me
put your hands up if you feel like this if your crazy about a guy and it feels like this
put your hands up if you feel like this if your crazy about a girl and you feel like this
like this, like this, like this, like this,like this....

Until next time, Audrey*