...But I'm Dying.

now momma said "you can't take love for granted you better keep him 'cause he's the best you've had" thought the grass was greener and if you leave me, i'ma be right there. who's hurting who? (yeah) you hurting you when you don't think about what you say, you let your pride push love away.

and when you need someone, who's gonna love you down? you don't want just anyone who's been around the town. promised that forever we'd be together but that arguement was the last thing we said.

Chorus:

and i can't eat, i can't sleep, playing back those memories. when i was there, you were here standing right in front of me. you're out of my life. for now i'll try to play cool on you, but i'm dying.

ooh ooh ooh oohhhh ooh ooh ooh but i'm dying without you

and i cry when i look at your picture, or hear the sound of your voice on my voicemail. i want to touch, want to feel you. i want to go back because it hurts like hell.

who's fooling who? i guess i'll play the fool. i'll push my ego out the way, there's so much that we need to say.

'cause when you're all alone who's gonna love you down? and it's been so long, we need to work it out. i know i'll go crazy without my baby. i won't be right until i see you again.

and i can't eat, i can't sleep, playing back those memories. when i was there, you were here standing right in front of me. you're out of my life. for now i'll try to play cool on you, but i'm dying.

ooh ooh ooh oohhhh ooh ooh ooh but i'm dying without you

oooooohhhhhhhh, said i'm dying without you

oooooohhhhhhhh, i'm dying without you

oooooohhhhhhhh, don't know what to do ... i can't ... said i'm dying

ooh ooh ooh oohhhh ooh ooh ooh you're out of my life, for now i'll try to play cool on you

oh and, alright alright

Self written poem.

Is it safe to call you baby?
Is it safe to call you mine?
Is it ok with you to hear my voice every day and every night?
I want you like this and I need you like that.
Give me your love and say you need mine back.
Give me your all, all that you can give.
'Cause I promise i'll be there each day that you live.

I'll be your today, tomorrow.. I'll be your forever.
<3

Photoshoot! 27.08.09

I got offered the chance to do a photoshoot at Studio London which some of you may have heard of... Here are a few pictures me and my girl Angie took :]















gwan sexyyy! ;]


















close up of me ^_^


















sexy Angieee!
















Casual/ Streetwear














I apologise for the lack of photos... She doesn't like a lot of them and I don't want to upload too much of me lol

A LEVELS!

This post is wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy over due!!! But hey, better late than never.

On the 20th of August 2009, approximately 9:30 am, I checked my UCAS track and WOIIII I got into my first choice University!!! xD You know what that means right?! I GOT THE RESULTS I NEEDED!!! ^_____________^
And to think that I thought I done badly in my summer exams, I actually didn't! :]
Thank you God! And all my friends and family who supported me and believed that I could do it!
Until next time, Audrey*

Time.

Time is GOLD

Time plays a big part in everyone's life. It's just that not everyone realises how important it is to them. There are always quotes I hear from people's mouths like "I need more time" or "She/He caught me at the wrong time" or "Only time will tell" etc. But what if you have a good opportunity, and at that split second, you can make a decision which can influence the current life you have now, which can make you happier? If you screw this opportunity up, you may never get another chance like this until after a few months, years, maybe even never.. What if tables were turned and you gave this chance to the same person who gave it to you, would you take it or leave it? Basically, what I'm trying to say is, allow time to play it's part in your life but don't throw away opportunities which may not always come. The decisions you make can be influenced by the time you make them. Think about what's best for you and others around you. Time is a precious thing. Don't waste it.

Until next time, Audrey*

S T R E S S !

WOW! I haven't blogged in a long time. I've just been so busy planning for my debut.. stressful times!! Well wish me luck! I hope it turns out well. I got two weeks and three days left to get my cotillion sorted... PAHHHHH!!!
My student loan hasn't even been sorted yet either!! LONG STORY!! ¬¬ Hopefully, I can sort that out.. A Level Results next week!! =[ I'm so shitting myself right now. If I don't get the results I need, CLEARING '09 HERE I COME! D= sooooo sad. Hope is needed so I'm praying whatever happens, I'll be successful in what I do..and happy =].
Until my next shitty rant :], Audrey*

KCAT!

I just posted this blog to say I met Kcat last night! I was so shy to approach her at first.. she was sitting at a table next to mine :) but I finally got the courage up to ask for a picture with her. I was actually stalling for a good 2 hours LOOOL. Delinquent was also with her but I didn't get a picture 'cause I felt embarrassed to ask for one looool. Here it is:













05/07/09

I know I looked berr baffed and gay.. only cause I was so happy! and felt ugly next to her hahaha.
Until next time, Audrey*

Happiness. .

This post was inspired by one of my girls and is dedicated to all the girls out there who feels this way.
It's funny how the one person that you used to think made you happy, isn't making you happy at all anymore. What if one day it all comes crashing down, and you know it will come to an end one way or another? What if that day comes where you're preparing yourself for that pain you will have to go through the minute you break up 'cause you knew it was bound to happen? What if one day you chose to end it with the person you love, so that you wouldn't have to go through the suffering anymore, and felt it was the best for the both of you to just move on? Sometimes, they say "if it's meant to be, it's meant to be"... However, whether you break up or not, the truth is sometimes a break up or some space is good 'cause it can either test how strong your love is for each other or it can also determine whether you're happier being with them or without them. All you gotta do is wait and see what happens between the both of you, but this time, be strong enough to do what's best for YOU and no one else 'cause everyone deserves to be happy. No one deserves to go through the same suffering over and over again just to be with that one person. You can shed tears, but allow each tear to make you stronger and learn from every aspect that ever hurt you and overcome it. You gotta love yourself as well as that one person, so don't sit there hurting yourself, be the stronger person and make a decision that will benefit both you and him/her. If the suffering doesn't stop now, it'll hurt even more the later you leave it. Never forget about the things that made you smile in your relationship, keep it as a souvenir so at least you know for even that one second you were truly happy.

Until next time, Audrey*

28th June '09

So I was sitting and waiting at my salon to get my hair done for Prom when I decided to go through some random mag. No it was no ordinary mag, the paper was a bit thicker than just an ordinary mag... It was almost like a mini catalogue with different fashion trends, hairstyles etc and here's what I encountered:

Funky Hats;

<--this was one of my favourites!

Anime make up;

Believe this was actually real people. Their anime eyes were drawn on top of their eyelids so they had to take pictures with their eyes shut! The aim was to reach the anime effect with the make up and hair. Also cause the designer saw anime as not just sweet little japanese girls but girls with an edge, some violent and aggressive so they made the models appear with weapons which is clearly shown in their outfits. I love this!

I hope you enjoyed this random post lol.

Until next time, Audrey*

Pixie Lott - What U Do :)

Because I'm so in love with this song, I thought I'd put the lyrics up :) - the video is in the blog I posted below this but I'll put it up anyway ^_^


What U Do:
baby baby baby
didnt believe in love at all
went through my days with a wall in place
baby baby baby
thought I'd be stronger on my own
but then you came along and Im changed

yes i feel the butterflies
yes I go all weak inside
hate to admit it but Im hit and
I dont want you to leave my side
used to love all romantic films
now I see you and me in them
say cheesy lines like"I'll be yours if you'll be mine."
this must be love
love what you do to me
oh what you do to me
cant get enough
of what you do to me
oh what you do to me
put your hands up if you feel like this
if your crazy about a guy and its real like this
put your hands up if you feel like this
if your crazy about a girl and its real like this

baby baby baby I've been spraying your cologne on my clothes
have I gone insane?
maybe maybe maybe I was way too cynical
thinking I would never find out Im crazy
Roses used to make me quease
but from you they smell so sweet
hate to admit it but Im hit and
god I even like your feet
never had a boy get me so
your picture's under my pillow
call you all the silly names
my boo my baby cakes

this must be love this must be love
love what you do to me
oh what you do to me
cant get enough
of what you do to me
oh what you do to me
put your hands up if you feel like this
if your crazy about a guy and you feel like this
put your hands up if you feel like this
if your crazy about a girl and its real like this

oh its a shame I was ashamed
embarrased to feel
head over heels
thought love was just fantasy
but now with you
I dont have to hide
you bring me to life
I never knew.... ooooh

if youre crazy about a guy and you feel like this
hey, put your hands up if you feel like this
put your hands up if you feel like this
like this, like this, like this, like this,like this,like this, like this, like this....
this must be love
this must be love
this must be love
look what you do to me
oh what you do to me
cant get enough
of what you do to me
oh what you do to me
put your hands up if you feel like this if your crazy about a guy and it feels like this
put your hands up if you feel like this if your crazy about a girl and you feel like this
like this, like this, like this, like this,like this....

Until next time, Audrey*